It seems as it were just yesterday. When a stranger knocked at our door. It was around 6pm. I remember that it was dark outside and my parents had just left for a party. I was only 11 years old and was left at home alone to babysit my brother and baby sister. For some reason I felt it was not a good idea to open the door.
I remember the stranger at the door would not leave and immediately a fear began to grip my heart. Why? I am not really sure but I knew something was not right. I told my 5 year old brother to go out the back door and to take our one year old sister with him. My brother was so brave instead he said "I will not leave you sister I can protect you," as he stood there holding a wooden stick as a sword. He some how sensed that I was afraid. I was afraid. The man at our door had caused me fear and anxiety and I became frozen. I quietly insisted that my siblings run out through the back to our neighbors house. I stayed behind to make sure my siblings made it out safely and to be sure the stranger would leave.
As the stranger knocked and knocked on the door my fear grew and grew. I was some how paralyzed and could not leave. Some how the neighbor felt that they should come and see what was going on and...suddenly the stranger left. After the experience of that night, it left a fear in me and I didn't want to be left alone. I would cry whenever my parents would leave because I was afraid. My parents thought that it was foolish since nothing had really happened. Some how that incident as strange as it was, left me vulnerable and fearful .
One day the neighbors who happened to be Christians invited me to their prayer meeting. I agreed to go. When I walked into their house I found them on their knees praying and some even weeping. I wanted what they had and at the time I felt so alone, empty and afraid. They then asked me if they could pray for me and I said yes. Then they asked me if I wanted to accept Jesus and I also said yes. Then something amazing happened, I knelt with them and a sweet and powerful feeling came all over me.
As I prayed, tears began to flow and I felt a warm sensation come over my body. I didn't understand it. I didn't know that Jesus had touched my heart. I just knew I had felt something. I asked if I could come over again and they told me "Of course you can." So I did. Every time that I had a chance I would attend their studies. As the weeks went by I felt something was not the same, I felt an inner peace and joy. All of a sudden the sky looked bluer and the trees greener and every thing looked so amazing. That terrible fear I had in me was gone. I had experienced the grace of God and had been saved and didn't even know it.
I experienced Jesus and my life would never be the same. He gave His amazing love to a child who needed him. He knew that one day I would understand His amazing love. After all these years, He has continued to sustained me and to show me His amazing grace. What a savior!!!!!!!!
Ephesians 2:8 King James Version (KJV)
8 For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:
Psalm 139:13-18 New International Version (NIV)
13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts, God! How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand when I awake, I am still with you.
New Beginnings Eastlake